Not Happy Tonight

Just found out one of the girls from my work had her baby. This pisses me off. Every single one of these ladies were worried with what happened with my perfect pregnancy to end up with a placenta abruption days before my due date. And look at them they all had no issues and a perfect pregnancy and delivery-AAAAAGGGGHHHH.

I JUST FEEL MY TIME IS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN.

I'm tired of waiting for my husband to get on board and continue our family-I'm at a stand still right now.

Madeline mommy needs your love and prayers for daddy

WE LOVE YOU PRINCESS!!!!

Happy Father's Day

Well today is my husband's first father's day(the dog counts but a real father's day)To make things worse I am traveling and can't be there with my husband-he is alone going to visit his daughter by himself. I feel horrible. I did buy him a World's Greatest Dad balloon that I will have blown up when I get home plus a frosted cookie that says Dad. I just feel horrible I can't be with him. Today is already going to be difficult. Another first we will make it through.

Madeline,
Mommy and Daddy miss you everyday
We love you and are so proud of you!!
all our love princess,
mom and dad!!

Does Anyone Else Have These Feelings

I'm so happy for all the mommy's that have welcomed their rainbow babies safetly into the world, but I feel like it will never happen for me and Matt. We tried for 2 1/2 yrs. for our precious madeline and I guess I have no confidence that it can happen w/o the help of medicine. I just wish my precious Madeline was with me and that when the time comes she could meet her brother's or sister's.

Happy 7 Month Birthday Princess!!

Mommy and Daddy love you so much princess!!