Don't know if it is just a hard day or what- but with Madeline's first birthday approaching I feel so much more sensative these days. Today I felt like I wasn't even pregnant last year, like it was all a dream that I was ever pregnant. I know I have a daughter but really. I had to stop and think today my life would not be this way if she was here. I feel like I'm just going back to old routines staying up late, watching tv til all hours things that I did before Madeline. I felt like I was a mom when I was with her in the hospital, but now I feel like I was never pregnant a year ago preparing for a baby. WTF!!!
Anyone else have these feelings after their loss?!?